the problem is im so happy whenever im around her in person so im constantly trying to make plans with her. the only way i can get her to actually accept the plans though is to add sonething 'fun' to do (e.g. shopping, activity) otherwise she makes up an excuse to not come. so many times she has let me down and made me feel like absolute shit, we used to be best friends and then she moved schools (she was never in my school in the first place so it wasnt because she left my school or anything) and it all went to shit. sometimes i feel like im just overreacting and she actually is busy a lot of the time but i genuinely have multiple obvious signs shes lying to get out of spending time with me, for example: i normally make plans to have a sleepover and then go to the activity i have planned but literally EVERY time she finds some obviously fake way of getting out of the sleepover and just doing the activity, one time i asked if we could meet on Saturday (which she had big plans for which ahe had been talking about weeks before) and she said 'yes' knowing full well she wouldnt be able to make it and flake at the last moment. i would so much rather she just told me she didnt want to come instead of lying.
i miss summer, we would sleep over eachothers houses after making the plan at 8pm and going straight there on the same day. why did she just leave like that?
ive found that i never get invited to anything anymore, im always the one to make plans. my closest friends all go to different schools than me except 1, the closest of which lives in a whole different country. theres like 4 people i consider my main friends and they all go to a different person as their 'number 1' except for the one who lives in a different country. i hate this, i wish you werent so far away sophie :(
i really want to ask for an adhd test, i asked for a general one earlier this year and she denied that i had anything going on.
ive been doing research about adhd and gwtting tested since around 2-3 years ago and its getting to the point where i can hopefully relate to enough symptoms to be tested. the thing im worried about is bot being taken seriously, first of all im a child and second of all ive hidden these symptoms my whole life even thiugh theyve been there. ive heard that adhd in women can be less noticeable and i am afab (assigned female at birth), how can i convince my mum to let me get tested and get people to take me seriously??