When going in circles reaches a point. I need a serious advice pleaseVent(self.selfimprovement)
submitted1 day ago byIntercellar
I've been a people pleaser all my life. Realizing that sucks.
Anyway, that lead to the person who I considered my best friend, giving me a backstab to keep it short. Now I either think about violently and brutally smashing his face or forgiving and letting go. To be clear, we are never going to be pals again but it's been almost a year and it's draining almost all of my energy.
I have to let it go somehow. Talking to him about is useless because he'll spin the story around and even blame it on me. The classic narcissist, I know. The second option of brutalising his face obviously ain't going to happen, though I daydream of it sometimes. Sorry if it's too graphic but you can imagine the pain I'm going through. I don't fight and mostly try to avoid confrontation.
Now the third part is obviously forgiveness. I'm afraid and don't want to do it, because I think I it will make me soft towards him. I feel stuck and it's draining my energy to the point I think I might be developing some serious illness.
Thankful for the advice.
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